C told me that nothing would change when she left. But everything has changed. everything is fucking different. i feel like I don’t have a best friend anymore.
I just asked to Skype with her. thats all. take 20 fucking minutes to Skype with me. And her answer was that its easier to do brief updates. but she isn’t even giving me those. She hasn’t talked me. I don’t think she cares about me anymore. I don’t think she loves me. I don’t think she needs me.
She lied. everything is fucking different.
she told me that everything would be amazing while she was in oz
but I’m not. everything isn’t amazing. everything is fucking SHIT. everything isn’t worth it.
I don’t think anything will ever be the same. I don’t think it’ll be the same when she comes back. I don’t think it’ll ever be the same. I don’t know how to deal with this loss. I don’t know why I got close to her. I don’t know why I opened up to her. I don’t do this, I don’t open up to people. I keep everything bottled up and hidden from everyone because it is easier then opening up. Cutting people off is easier. This way I don’t get hurt. This way people don’t make things worse. This way I’m save.
I though third time was the charm.
R left or pushed them away
S left or pushed her away
now C is leaving or I’m pushing her away and I don’t know how to stop it
11:44 pm • 19 July 2014
16-year-old trans girl placed in boys' reform school
Jane Doe, the anonymous 16-year-old transgender girl who spent two months in an adult correctional facility despite no criminal charge, has been transferred to a “secure facility for delinquent boys.”
According to DCF officials, while in the psychiatric facility, Doe assaulted a staff member and a fellow youth, and also destroyed DCF property on Saturday night, prompting the final determination of placement at the Juvenile Training School, stating that there is no other “suitable place” for her.
Doe’s lawyer told the AP that DCF has already broken a number of promises regarding his client’s placement, safety, and future prospects. Doe’s attorney claims that DCF officials had assured him that Doe would receive adequate therapy, and that the agency would attempt to place her in a foster home.
Doe is being held in a separate room, away from the boys at JTS.
I don’t have any words for how unjust, inhumane and downright awful this is. #JusticeForJane.
12:32 am • 17 July 2014 • 3,199 notes
C and I also don’t talk every day anymore.
we hardly talk
we haven’t talked in months.
I just. idk.
i miss my best friend
3:57 pm • 28 June 2014
the real reason I’m not into doing anything at pride this year is because C isn’t here.
Doing anything that I used to do with C is hard and impossible.
I don’t even want to go to my friend’s 21st bday party tonight because she is also friends with C.
all of this just hurts and I want C to come home.
3:55 pm • 28 June 2014
C just told me she is going on a road trip for 2-3 weeks next month. She didn’t answer my message asking if this means i won’t be able to talk to her.
It makes me sad. She can’t leave me for that long.
10:34 pm • 27 May 2014
I also think i realize why C leaving is so hard on me. I told myself when C left that it would be hard but I had others here to rely on.
But then all those people fucked off.
I know why it hurts so much that R fucked off. Because i was going to rely on them to help me through C not being here.
But they left.
and M isn’t real
12:26 am • 19 May 2014